A Love Letter To My Ex Boyfriend: A Tale Of Self-Discovery And Gratitude For The Lessons You Taught Me
I don’t know if you are going to read this, but I have to say as much as I miss you, I have too much pride (though it is nothing compared to yours) to tell you that. Having said that, I do not regret anything including breaking up with you. What I do regret is the way our breakup played out. It was hard to lose the guy I thought was “the one” but what was harder was losing my best friend. A lot of people had told me dating your best friend will eventually ruin your friendship, I always told them to fuck off. Maybe I should’ve listened to them, at least we would still be friends. But like I said, I don’t regret anything especially being your girlfriend. It’s simple, we had a great time together and then it ended, as good things inevitably must. Now before you jump to conclusions, this is not a letter of bitterness, blame or resentment. This letter is to thank you for everything you taught me over the years (the good and the bad).
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People say, everything happens for a reason and there are some things that we can’t control. If you were here, you would make some stupid joke about it and I would laugh along, but you know it is a fact. For as smart as you are, sometimes you really act like an idiot. I know you hate confrontation and you can’t express your feelings to save your life and I also know I might’ve expected a little too much from you. Our cute little relationship, at some point, took an extremely sharp turn too fast and suddenly we had become toxically co-dependent and frankly, a little dysfunctional. So, thank you for leaving because after I got over the fact that I won’t see you every day, I realised I didn’t need to see you every day. And this made me love myself a little more since I finally learned how okay it is to just be by myself, so I will forever be grateful.
This may sound very corny and just bear with me, okay? You did for so long, what is five more minutes? If it weren’t for you, there are so many things I wouldn’t know and love about myself. Like the fact that no matter how important it is for you to socialize, sometimes I just like staying in and ordering McDonald’s. Now, don’t get me wrong I am not being mean, but you showed me exactly what I do not want in my future partners. And that is honestly the best thing you could’ve done for me. Okay, maybe that and all the times you surprised me with a box of doughnuts.
I want you to know that I will always love you even if I am not in love with you.
Yours never again.